God’s Provision

This post is kind of hard to admit out loud but I wouldn’t be true to my word of being raw and real with my thoughts. I started to think about the ways God protects us from things we don’t even see sometimes. Looking back on my life I can see where I didn’t get an answered prayer or things didn’t happen the way I thought they should but how I was actually blessed. I can’t help but think about how broken our world is. Sometimes I wonder if God was saving Logan from something worse. What if Logan would have had some sort of horrible illness or fell into addictions or depression or whatever evil that is in our world. You never imagine looking at the innocence of a child that they could grow up to fall into evil traps or some sort of horrible sickness. We look at our children with dreams of great things for them. Logan was 2.5 and had so much life left. She was so beautiful and so sweet. Never did I imagine anything dark in her world but the reality of that possibility is still true too. I also think these thoughts come up when I try to make sense of the senseless and when I try to understand why Logan had to go to heaven. I miss her so much. WE miss her so much. I cling to the promises of God. The one who knows our story from beginning to end. He doesn’t make mistakes. He never has. He never will. So who am I to tell the author of life and death he made a mistake? I just do my best to trust his plan and wait for the day I can see Logan again. Soon baby girl. I love you always Logie. 💜🐓🦋